Keep In Touch

I once heard a quote that went along the lines of: keeping in touch with old friends is a sign of a strong character.

Interesting. I must agree.

It appears it is more common to lose touch than to keep in touch these days, which is somewhat ironic considering all the technological media we have claiming to keep us "connected".

How connected are we really? Does chatting online for twenty minutes count as remaining connected? Do skype dates keep us connected? And without the internet and all it offers communication-wise, would we make the same effort to remain pals?


Just some thoughts.

How would you like to waste time today?

And as we all know, listening to music is by absolutely no means a waste of time. Music is life. End of story. Full stop.

Now here is the music:

Tyga feat. Adele- Reminded


Which then reminded me of this:

Immortal Technique- You Never Know


Which then took me here:


And then to this:


And while I was at it I couldn't forget this:




You knowwwwwwww what it is

Thoughts...

I apologize that my posts have took a turn as of late and have become very personal. The reason being: I do not keep a diary and I do not feel like gushing to my friends about the way I feel. They'd probably never talk to me again. I use this medium to vent, and seeing as I have two followers and about three views a day, I'm quite sure no one pays attention to this anyways.

I know he's over it. I know I never cross his mind. I know it doesn't bother him. I know it and I hate it. And I feel helpless and stupid. Helpless because there's nothing I can do to insert a thought of me into his mind every so often, and stupid because I shouldn't feel this way and it's silly of me to entertain the feelings I have for him, so much so that I think about him all the time.

It's pathetic, I know. I bore myself thinking about it. It's become such a daily occurence that thinking about my feelings has become boring and tiresome.

Whatever. "HOW TO DEAL". I should look into that. I've become the lamest person I know. Fantastic.

When is Enough really Enough?

Sometimes, maybe it is the smart thing to quit while you're ahead. I am neither ahead nor behind nor moving at all, so at this point although giving up does not seem to make any logical sense, it is really the only option I have left.

Except that,
I've tried. Oh yes I have tried. I made it almost a little more than a week, I believe, without talking to him at all. But it's impossible. I gave in like he had the first time.

I know he wants her. I know she wants him. (At least that's what it looks like.) I have no idea why he wastes his time with me.





So, I've decided to FUCK IT...whatever that means.

Safeway Father’s Day Walk/Run for Prostate Cancer

Safeway Father’s Day Walk/Run for Prostate Cancer

Visuals: Cheese & Crackers?

Transcendental

Time. Ultimately transcendental. What is it about time that heals? What powers does it possess? With time memories fade, people grow, people change...

But what is it about time specifically that fixes? How does it know how to make the pain go away? Is it only a temporary mender, as it knows that one can never be completely happy, and that sequential unhappiness is inevitable however the "when" and "for how long"'s go unknown.

"When"..."how long"...There it is again: time.

Such a mysterious and captivating thing. With time one learns to let go. One stops missing. One forgets. One moves on.

How does time do it? But what's more, why don't we possess the power to control it?? To speed it up or slow it down when we need to.

It has a power all its own and is completely out of our reach. Like love.

Time and love are immeasurable as they will never be tangible. They are out of our grasp and cannot be contained or sped up or slowed down.

What is it about time and love that go hand-in-hand, that are interchangeable???

It must be something. There must be some sort of answer. I'm yet to find it, however.


Sidenote: sorry this got so deep haha

Worlds Greatest Bank Robbery

You must watch this. Totally genius.

Worlds Greatest Bank Robbery

Read up on what the Washington Post article had to say about the 2005 Brazilian heist!

You Must Experience!

Seeing as the summer break is finally here for all those college and university-goers, many of us have tons of time on our hands and no idea where to begin to make the most of it. Well, may I provide you with a few suggestions?

Go out for a night on the town with your best friends or your loved one, and catch a flick! Specifically make a mental reminder of "Water for Elephants". Reese Witherspoon and Robert Pattinson (although not a personal fan of either) really shine as it appears they are in their element in this movie as circus performers. I mean not to say they are clowns in any way, just that their partnership in creativity under a circus tent is phenomenal. Definitely a must-see this summer.

Go for a bike ride! Biking is an awesome way to work your muscles and get out there and catch some rays. Ride through a part of town you are unfamiliar with and stop by the local bakery for a pastery or milkshake! You really can't go wrong.

Catch some local theatrical talent! Tomorrow night I will be watching "Forrests" at the Terragon Theatre in downtown Toronto! The talent is supposed to be mind-blowing, so I'm uber excited. Check out what kind of plays are being produced around you!

Spend the day at the spa. If you live in Toronto, you might want to check out The Elmwood Spa and venture out to visit a masseuse. Apparently they really know how to get right in their and mend your broken mind and body! If you're like me and trying to mend a broken heart, a spa and massage might be just the way to go.

Need more suggestions? Check out What's On Toronto.com for a great list of restaurants, free gigs, best jazz bars and local shows to catch!

Enjoy!!

What's Going On?

It was on the George Stroumboulopoulos Late Night Show that I learned Canadians are among the world's leading best "sitters". We love to sit. We lounge. We waste a copious amount of time on social networking sites. Hakunamatata. It is Friday the 13th and perhaps that may be the reason for all my friends deciding to stay indoors tonight. Or perhaps it is the sudden rain that started about fifteen minutes ago. Some "have work in the morning", others "haven't spent much family time lately". Really though, I think the reason they've all chosen to stay inside is because they are professional "sitters".

What are all my friends doing at this very moment? Melting into their couches and watching '90210' or catching up on last season's 'Dexter'. I don't have much to say for myself, I mean, how am I spending my time any better sitting at my laptop typing this out? My only defense is that my intentions were not to do so tonight.

I wanted to out with some guys 'n' dolls to go watch 'THOR'(which came out May 6th). I was even planning on suggesting heading out to a pub afterwards to enjoy a couple 'a' beers. Sadly my good intentions never received the oppurtunity to play themselves out.

Relationship-lovers, lazy slugs and club rats are what make up my scattered, and numerous, circle of friends. If they're not sitting, they're out at clubs dishing out money they don't have and making memories that will never be. If they're not at "Revival", they're at home in front of their TV set, or attending to their significant other's magnanimously important needs.

Makes me want to throw up.

Anyhow, that's all I have to say about that.



Oh, speaking of Friday the 13th...

Mind Splatter

As an English Major, I have always been interested broadening my scope and integrating the best possible diction into my work, to capture my thoughts on paper just as they appear in my mind. As a student at the University of Toronto, I find it a real shame we do not offer more creative writing courses. In third year there is one creative writing course offered,to be precise. Recently, while mosing around on www.artsandlettersdaily.com, I came across an article written exceptionally well about the popularity, or lackthereof, creative writing. If you are curious to find out more about what writer Mark McGurl has to say about creative writing programs, writers and their personal thoughts about their own work, and more, please read on and check out this link!

The MFA Octopus: Four Questions About Creative Writing

Distractions, Distractions

I don't know what to do. My mind can't concentrate on anything for more than 10 minutes. I can barely find any motivation to sit here and type.

I didn't think missing someone could hurt this much. I want to jump up and scream and shout and curl up in a ball and cry and kick and punch and hide...I don't know what to do first.

I honestly cannot believe I'm posting this up on the Internet.

I've forgotten what it's like to feel happy.

I've lost my smile.

A Diary Entry

I can't seem to remember what movie this line is from, or what book I may have read it in, or on what radio channel I may have heard it, but it is resonating in my mind at all hours of the day. It's something along the lines of:

without you, everything good isn't as good

I miss him all the time. I really can't say there's a moment he doesn't cross my mind. Any good news isn't as good as it would be if I were able to share it with him. Food is tossed to the side. The sun tries to make me smile, but sometimes it just hurts too much to muster a smile.

I can only hope he thinks of me from time to time.

I can only hope.